salam,
a lot of things happened in the past few days. i feel so down...
as always, i'll retreat into my own shell and keep the rest of the world disconnected from me. i dont know why. i just know i want to be alone. i'll stare into nothingness. i'll daydream about a fairy-tale future. i'll imagine re-writing my past. i'll lie down in the dark and cry when this void inside me swallows my heart.
i have always wanted to blog about my cyclical depression. but everytime i log in, my fingers felt heavy. i am insecure about people knowing that i am not this smiling, funny, jovial, happy-go-lucky and noisy fella that they are used to. i feel inferior that people will know i am just an empty shell who has nothing solid inside. i worry that people who always trust me with their problems will think that i am incapable of helping them anymore.
so, some other time,then?
ps: friends? friends won't understand. when it comes to them, friends expect me to help them. when it comes to them, i shouldn't give them any problem. when it comes to them, "i am their friend" is different from "they are my friends".
a lot of things happened in the past few days. i feel so down...
as always, i'll retreat into my own shell and keep the rest of the world disconnected from me. i dont know why. i just know i want to be alone. i'll stare into nothingness. i'll daydream about a fairy-tale future. i'll imagine re-writing my past. i'll lie down in the dark and cry when this void inside me swallows my heart.
i have always wanted to blog about my cyclical depression. but everytime i log in, my fingers felt heavy. i am insecure about people knowing that i am not this smiling, funny, jovial, happy-go-lucky and noisy fella that they are used to. i feel inferior that people will know i am just an empty shell who has nothing solid inside. i worry that people who always trust me with their problems will think that i am incapable of helping them anymore.
so, some other time,then?
ps: friends? friends won't understand. when it comes to them, friends expect me to help them. when it comes to them, i shouldn't give them any problem. when it comes to them, "i am their friend" is different from "they are my friends".
13 comments:
Come on bro.. Cheer up!! You are not alone!! Always remember that!! For you have a bunch of friends out there waiting for your signal.
Though friends might not help all the times, but the least they can do is to lend you their ears and shoulders for you to cry on.
hi Jo, thanks for this. you are one of those friends who are really 'friends'. i am glad i have people like you. 1 of you equals 100 of others, i will say :)
u r my fren
hehehe yeah bangbor memang best! ni yang rasa nak ajak makan megi sambil baring atas bot sesama, masa candat nanti.
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time
You must keep on trying
Smile what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
-lyric smile - glee cast-
http://www.mylyricarchive.com/glee_cast_lyrics/smile_lyrics.html
::nangess::
unloquacious lowqie, lirik tu best la. terus cari lagu ni kat youtube nak dengar/tengok. terimakasih!
gadis gengster, nak nombor teleponnnn
sigh jugak :nanges:
tapi kadang² memang fedap, bila dia ade problem kemain sms kita sampai pukol 2 3 4 pagi pon, gaya aku nih bujang trang tang tang, tapi bila taim kita, astagaa.. apa kita ckp tuh bagai angin lalu, wooo.. serik dah.. skrg mmg "mal nak lay" org gini..
tu la bulan... sedih la dibuat camni. kalau time kita tak perlukan pertolongan, takpe la. ni kalau time perlukan pertolongan tu la diorang buat hal.
aq rs x nk fwennn la diorg ni, soe soe laaa
you are bot alone..but if you fill alone...just 1 night only....
hahahaha shaba shaba, cemana la kau boleh ingat balik lawak lama ni... nasib tak gelak sengsorang kat sini.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TT0Q4V0z6gA
1st time dgr time tgk cite glee...
keep on smiling bro..=)
owh, lempang je skalik membe2 cmtu jika perlu.. hehe
unloquacious lowqie, dah download lagu tu. best je dengar sambil buat kerja kat pejabat ni. dok ulang-ulang dengar hehehe...
ya, betul tu.. mari kita lempang si Bulan ramai-ramai hahahah
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